Baggage

Yesterday I had a visitor that took up quite a lot of my time. She was having difficulties with her land steward who had allocated a piece of land near her place for a college without asking her. Unfortunately she didn't find out until the land allocation procedure had been gone through and she had missed the time for objections.

She was doing what a lot of what I call 'Old School' Aurovilians (she had been in Auroville ever since it started) and especially ex ashram people tend to do. They go and tell their story to as many people as possible in the hopes that the people they talk to will see the rightness of their position and do something about it. What I notice also is that they rarely actually confront the situation either within themselves or the people concerned. As a consequence they have a huge amount of emotional baggage – I was amazed that this person was telling me about what she considered were wrong doings that happened over thirty years ago! Several times the story being told as if it happened yesterday.

I don't think there is much that I can do to help and I told her this. But it made me wonder how much baggage I carry around with me. I have told Vivek if he ever catches me acting like that then he has to tell me to stop immediately.

Leon again

After writing about Leon yesterday I felt I had to draw him again today. I think this picture expresses better his fundamental inner tension although I can't see what colours he would be wearing.

I am still enjoying the writing which must be a first as I am not – so far – feeling that heaviness and boredom that I usually get when writing fiction. Which is what usually makes me give up.

Beautiful sky

I had someone come to see me today to talk about the water conservation work that we do in Buddha Garden. I took him down to the bottom land where we have dug water conservation ponds and saw this this beautiful sky.

I hope that when the trees grow there won't be so many that we cannot enjoy the sense of space that there is in this place.

Leon

This is a picture I created today about someone I am going to write about tomorrow. I am really looking forward to it as the picture has sparked off several ideas......

People I am writing about

This is a picture of all the people that I am writing about. I think eventually I will actually draw them all and put them all together in one picture. I wrote about these people some time ago and bringing them all together like this is really good as it gives me ideas about how they will interact with each other.

Amazingly I am really enjoying the writing and today I looked forward to doing it. Long may it continue!

Apart from that it has been an annoying day in many ways. Very grey with drizzle with lots of odd jobs to do and a software glitch which meant that I lost some of my work. I don't really think this Green group work is for me as it doesn't have enough practicality in it.

Finding a signal

Having finally sorted out how to download stuff from the BBC website I then had to go searching for a place where I could get a wifi signal. The only place was outside my door in the garden. I thought it was rather precarious for my beautiful new computer to be standing on a cardboard box which was open to all the insects and animals roaming around.

At least it wasn't raining.  

Feeling liberated

Today I feel as if I have found some inner energy and spark to actually do something. That I have connected with an inner movement that means I can express myself.I have started a writing schedule and although I haven't actually done any yoga today I feel that I will start doing it again either today or tomorrow. I now feel I have some internal energy to carry out my own projects.

It feels very liberating.