In my bed 20180811

Had Elsie in my room last night where I had the best sleep since arriving in the UK.  Lovely to wake up to Elsie but she is still a bit reserved with me.  

Had a lovely day out with Emma, Rachael and the children visiting a lot of the playgrounds and parks in Sheffield.  Went to Heely City farm for lunch and at last managed to get a rest after lunch.  Hopefully this will stop me crashing out early in the evening.

With Rachael 20180810

Slept very heavily last night and feel a bit better this morning.  Got my hair cut so I don’t look like a witch anymore and then off to see Rachael.  Dreadful journey with rain and long queues over Woodhead pass over the Pennines.  As I had organized a hair do for 10.30am we didn’t get a particularly early start which didn’t help. 

Had a lovely time with Emma, Rachael and the children.  I also got to see all the work that Chris has done on his house since last year.  He’s done a lot but there is still a huge amount to do.

Disorientated 20180809

When I woke up for several minutes didn’t know where I was and thought I might have the fist symptoms of dementia.  Then I remembered that I am in this new house.  Spent a long time this morning getting myself together and going shopping.  I found the above in the big shop I went to and cannot understand how they manage to get them all the same size.  Actually I do know – either they throw away a lot or use hybrid plants.

I kept losing myself although I think I have got myself properly orientated now.  Stomach is in a terrible state and isn’t helped by the toilet being rather delicate.  It takes 20 minutes to fill up the cistern between flushes!

Had a nice time with Sam and Elsie who after being rather reserved in the beginning has now got used to me.  Poor little girl is still covered in chicken pox scars.  Emma is sick with a cold and a bad ear.  Despite all that had a nice time and very glad to see them all again.

Arrival 20180808

Journey wasn’t too bad but exhausted after losing a night’s sleep and then having to wait nearly three hours for Tom to turn up.  He went to the wrong terminal and then tried to bring the car around to the correct terminal but had to go almost back home before he could turn round.  Eventually made it.

Have got a very nice house to stay in although having all this space makes me feel quite giddy.  I keep mislaying my stuff.

Starting to see a space 20180807

After a sleepless night felt terrible this morning, very fragile and bit disorientated and dizzy.  Despite that I felt I had to get on with stuff.  I managed to finish this week’s video and to sort out sharing Mary’s video which I hope works.  Started packing and it looks like I left more behind in the UK than I thought.  Which means that my bag shouldn’t be too heavy.  Stopping to help a student with a video project helped me calm down a bit.  She had some lovely equipment but it cost $5000!  We had a nice interview.

Have managed to get my packing sorted and have only the last bits to do this evening before I go at 11.00pm.  Have decided to go to yoga and hope that will help calm me down as well.  Must try and get as much rest and sleep as I can.

Still feeling overwhelmed 20180806

Managed to get Mary’s video finished but it is 55 minutes long!  I’ve had a problem uploading it to my google drive to share because the internet is very unsteady.  Went to Udavi school and to see friend Auroculture who is rather frail but is still managing.  She wants me to bring chocolate back from the UK which will be OK until I get to Chennai when it will start to melt.  The picture is meant for a video about seeds but I don’t think I will get it done before I go.

 Feel extremely tired while driving myself to get all this stuff done. Watched two television programs in an effort to calm down but in fact it just made me more agitated than ever.

Feeling overwhelmed 20180805

Today I spent all day working really hard trying to finish Mary’s video.  It feels like my eyes are standing out on stalks.  I feel very tired and thinking about what I have to do before I go makes me feel more tired than ever.

I did have a bit of a break when Priyal, who I mentor as a Newcomer to Auroville, came to see me.  Even then when we walked around Buddha Garden I was taking clips for the videos on which I am working.  The photo for today will be used in a video about flowers in Buddha Garden.