A moment

I was walking around Buddha Garden first thing this morning and this moment presented itself.

It was lovely to see the sun like this after what feels like a long time of grey skies and rain.

Three schools

Was in contact with all three schools on the program today.  During work time our group from Deepanam came and cleared a bed and had a good look at the different weeds.  I then went to Transition where I was delighted to see how much they have done.  They had taken all the grass off the beds and finished taking the rest of the roots out during the session. This afternoon I went to Udavi school with two volunteers and we cut a lot of the grass.

This shows that all the projects are coming on well.

Craft things have arrived

Today the last of my craft things arrived so I am ready to start with paper cutting.  My first tries with scrap paper were more difficult than I anticipated.

I’m obviously going to need a lot of practice.

Students

This is a picture of some of the students from the group I see on Fridays.  Given all the rain I didn’t think there would be very much grown.  But they found all these ladies finger that they gave to the school kitchen.

This week I am determined to get the grass cut.  It is such a jungle and I think the students feel rather overwhelmed by it.  There is another group starting soon and until the grass is cut its difficult to see where they will go.

Depressed

I realise that I am really depressed and have been covering it up by being horrible to myself and not eating properly.  Even after all these years that seems to be my default action when I am unhappy or disturbed.  To eat less.

Have decided that I will try to have proper meals at each mealtime.  Even if I have to spend a bit of money on it because I don’t have the energy to do it myself.  Hopefully that will help my mood and increase my energy so that I can understand what is going on and why I am like this right now.

This is the screen wallpaper I want on the tablet which is going to have the audio companion on it. I have made the image but just cannot fit it onto the tablet screen, even with a special app.  Will have to fiddle around with it more I suppose.

Trying to slow down

Managed to slow down a bit today which is just as well as I had two student sessions yesterday.  This shows the garden in Transition.  I’m really pleased as we managed to get all the beds and paths laid out.  In Udavi we picked a lot of ladies finger but the grass is like a jungle.  I fear that is making the students rather disheartened so will really try and cut it this next week.

Did a lot of cycling around and got a lot of jobs done.  I felt much better after all the physical activity.

Sore finger

Have had this sore finger for several days but cannot understand why.  When I squeezed all the pus out there was no thorn or anything causing the sore.

Being on the third finger of my right hand the symbolism is that it has something to do with the fact that I am not feeling good about myself in relation to other people at the moment.