A flower for me

Got a lovely letter from two Dutch friends who sent me this picture of an Iris for my birthday. They invited me for a birthday dinner when they come to India on Tuesday. It was really lovely to be remembered and to have something nice planned for me.

The meaning of Iris is faith, wisdom, peace of mind, friendship and hope. Purple iris is symbolic of wisdom and compliments. In Greek 'iris' means 'rainbow'.

Protected

Today we had an emergency Farm group meeting to discuss a problem on a farm that is ongoing for several years. During the meeting I felt really attacked by someone – his viscousness and hate towards me as he accused me of all sorts of things felt really horrible.

I had to leave the meeting. As I sat trying to make sense of it and understanding what the best response would be I asked for help as I just couldn't see what I should do. I went back into the meeting and felt that I was protected and that nothing he could throw at me would hurt me.

The rest of the meeting was not that good but I felt that I was OK. This was feeling was much increased by my yoga class.

My birthday

Organised to go to the Ashram to meditate in Sri Aurobindo's room – something that can only be done on your birthday – and was very disappointed when it didn't happen. Organised the taxi but then Pierre wanted Rajan to go and collect cashews so I felt I had to stay to be with the volunteers as Pierre had to leave as well to do the deliveries.

Then a group of 13 people from Khazakstan turned up so I had to deal with them. The universe was very clear that I was not going to go to the Ashram this morning!

Later I at last got my bike repaired and am SO pleased as now it rides really well. It seems that large squirts of WD40 in various strategic places and oil on the chain was all that was needed. I then bought myself a beautiful silk dress – lovely cut and colour with a feel like cotton. The above picture was the best I could do without a selfie stick but unfortunately it doesn't show the cut and shape of the dress which is very simple but lovely.

Yogic peacefulness

Had yet another not very good night's sleep, but after getting up in the early hours and going to the toilet I realised that my tight stomach had relaxed. So I got a few hours of peaceful sleep and went to work this morning feeling much better.

Have managed to sort out a watering schedule with Pierre, but why did we have to go through all that hassle yesterday? Why couldn't we sort it out from the beginning? Pierre said he 'didn't realise' despite my asking questions about the watering before he started.

The picture describes how I felt after yoga as there are no words.

A bit better

Felt a bit better, but then was made to feel worse by having to sort out the non working wifi and negotiate with Pierre about the watering in lettuce land. Of course he hasn't thought that the watering is going to take a lot longer and that it will affect the other watering that we do in Buddha Garden. I was quite annoyed that he just starts doing it and doesn't discuss with anyone so we can come to arrangement that we can all live with. He just went ahead this morning and I couldn't start watering until 10.00am.

Just as well that I hadn't arranged to do anything today although I did organise my last lot of shelves using the most recently purchased plastic boxes. At least it stops everything getting too dusty.

Sick

Have felt really sick today waking up with an aching back, pains in my stomach and diahorrea with my whole digestive system feeling tight and uncomfortable. Later in the day I had a runny nose and scratchy throat.

It felt it was a response to the dancing last night although maybe I have also got something. Nothing seemed to ease it very much although my back got much better as the day progressed.

Dancing again

Went to my first Nia dance of the year today – first time I have been able to manage it.

I felt as if a lot of negative stuff got shaken out.