Dancing with my devil 20191124

Somehow I have managed to finish and upload the Buddha Garden video I started yesterday.  I have also spoken to Kardash about the audio guide as well as finishing this picture.  As well as thought about the video to launch the book.

I have a peculiar reluctance to do the last edit and index for the book.  But that is the next job…..

I created this picture instead of doing my book.  I really enjoyed doing it and I like the result.  It was what happened during the session yesterday.  So far no message.

Now I feel too tired to tackle the book!

Re-acquainting with my devil 20191123

Very upset to hear from the volunteer who went to Buddha Garden yesterday who told me that there was nothing ready for him.  I was so upset because I thought I had arranged everything with two other volunteers.  Had to go to Buddha Garden this morning to sort everything out as well as deliver some of the shopping – its too heavy on my bike to take it all at once. The volunteer came with a friend staying in Auroville and everything worked out although he is sick as well.  He caught a bug from the plane!

I don’t know how I am going to be able to carry on like this as obviously the building work is going to take much longer than expected.  Its getting busier and busier. And not living there is very challenging.  Tried to find a room at an Auroville hotel near to Buddha Garden but they are completely booked.

Despite all this went to my Goshin Tai session where this devil was very much in evidence.  He came to me last time when I was in Central France and through him I recovered from my first lot of eating problems.  He reminds me of Ganesha and he carries a trident like Siva.

Rain and mud 20191122

It rained so hard that the school session was cancelled.  This was a relief as I had spent the morning cycling around in the rain and didn’t want to get any wetter.  But it meant I couldn’t measure up for the nursery and get that job done.

Before I left spent some time with Bahkia talking about the menu for next week.  This will require some shopping.  I also organised something for a volunteer who is supposed to be coming today. So many jobs and living so far away from Buddha Garden makes it more difficult to get them done. 

Explodaing 20191121

Another very busy day.  Went to get the draft copy of my book and fell down on the path just outside the Prisma office door.  It was raining and the bricks were very slippery because they were covered with algae/moss.  It was a rather peculiar sensation of falling as I felt it in slow motion.  At the same time I felt as if things were exploding.  Despite scraping off the skin on my elbow everything else seems OK.  Apparently they had been asking the gardener to deal with those bricks for some time and my fall gave them an excuse to get it done immediately.

While in the office I realised I hadn’t got my phone with me and thought I might have left it in Buddha Garden.  As I was in a taxi I went back to Buddha Garden but couldn’t find it.  Gave me a chance to talk to Rajan who is looking better.  Very pleased when I got back to Surrender to find the phone on my table. 

I feel I have been jolted in some way and that this in a funny way is helping me with my eating problems.

Overwhelmed again 20191120

This morning I arrived in Buddha Garden to find that Rajan was still sick.  I felt and still feel overwhelmed.   This despite the fact I managed to get everything done which included teaching a session at Transition School.

On a trip to the Town Hall to collect the printing that I didn’t have time to collect yesterday I met two people who used to know Rachael.  They were delighted to hear she is getting married.  One of them saw my poster about water and the problems of water in Auroville.  We had a very rich discussion about it.

Growing food is my passion but I’m not sure how to move forward with it.  I feel I don’t want to be responsible for Buddha Garden but don’t know where else I could express myself fully.

A challenging day 20191119

Had so much to do today and feel tired after all that cycling around.  Jobs included a lot of shopping as well as a trip to Udavi school with the architect to show where the new nursery is going to be.  I enjoyed meeting her.

This blue flower was, I think, telling me to keep cool.  And I did just about manage to get everything done – I think maybe because someone who wanted to see me cancelled.

I must remember that there is time for everything that needs to get done.

Bursting into activity! 20191118

I could hardly believe my ears this morning when the generator burst into life and activity began on the building site at 9.30am.  On a Monday!!  Presumably money is needed by someone….

Rajan is not very well so not doing very much which made it extra challenging.  I find keeping abreast of everything that needs doing quite challenging.    And living away from Buddha Garden makes it much worse.