A chaotic day 20200112

Had a truly chaotic day with nearly one hundred students coming for two sessions, one in the morning and the other in the afternoon.  They changed the groups around with the smaller group coming in the morning and the larger in the afternoon.  Apparently they had got the names mixed up!!! This meant we had to divide the groups up and do the activities differently in the afternoon.  I ended up doing the farm tour three times in the hot afternoon, once with two of the groups together.  At the end I was exhausted.

One nice thing was that when I got back to the house I felt it fold around me and I felt myself as I really was.  First time that has happened here when I have felt the house holding me.

When I got back Rachael tried several times to contact me and I was really worried that something was wrong.  But it was to tell me that she has got a job in Bangkok.  She will be going in August.  I am SO pleased and have loads of questions that will just have to wait.  It will be lovely having her a bit closer. I found it very difficult to sleep.

A wild rose inside me 20200111

This week in Goshin Tai So I had wild roses in my heart and eventually all over my body.  They were a very pale pink which Isha said was my psychic being becoming apparent.

Coming clear 20200110

Got to Buddha Garden to find chaos as a group of twenty had turned up expecting an experience and breakfast.  Fortunately Bhakia was able to come in early and I helped her with breakfast.  Chopping up green papaya (a meat tenderiser) tenderised my hands which are now rather sore. In the end I think it all went OK and breakfast was delicious!

Had a really good conversation with Sathya (who is an artist at present living in Buddha Garden) and we talked about the roots of creativity.  A lot of my inspiration comes from Buddha Garden/working with the earth.  So if I leave Buddha Garden I will have to replace that somehow.

One thing I have decided is that I will continue Goshen Tai So on an individual basis.  The weekly Saturday session is getting difficult to manage but I want to continue as amongst a lot of other things it stimulates my creativity. 

Question answered 20200109

A running around day when I don’t think I got very much done, but…. Did the best I could.

Yesterday on the way to Buddha Garden just as I went past Matrimandir I hear this bird singing.  It reminded me of Peter and I felt quite emotional. Later I heard from Lesley who, without being specifically asked, answered my question about whether I should visit the UK for Rachael’s wedding.  ‘Of course you don’t want to come to when its so dark and cold.  We’ll make sure to send you lots of pictures.’  It felt very clear and I now feel much better about not going.

The picture is of an art exhibition at the Town Hall.  The ‘people’ are made with old brushes and represent the variety of people in Auroville.  I loved it.

Not so bad 20200108

I thought it was going to be a really difficult day with a school session in the morning followed by a lunch meeting.  In turned out not so bad and I wonder if this was partly because I spent some time in my room when I didn’t need to work.  Rajan has cleared out quite a lot of his stuff so I can now get to my stuff more easily although I didn’t find what I was looking for unfortunately.  I also went to the school by taxi which made it easier especially as I was carrying quite a lot.

Had a long discussion with Giri about the course on Sunday but still not much clearer about what to do.  I got some good ideas from Rajan about how arrange things in my room.

The picture is of the first orange (kumquat) blossom of the year which is lovely.

In a whirl 20200107

I feel as if I am in a bit of a whirlwind with lots of different things to sort out.  Vivek wasn’t happy with the estimate we got for doing my house so now we are going to get other estimates.  With presumably more delays.  I’ve also had to organize a meeting at short notice and deal with a school trip tomorrow and Rajan taking the day off very suddenly.  He sent me a very confused email about the time he is going to take off etc.  It looks as if he is going to be there for work but you never know…..

This afternoon though I suddenly feel very bored as I don’t have anything to do.  This is when it would be nice to have some embroidery and once Rajan has moved all his stuff out of my room that is something that I will think about starting. Although probably I will get caught up in doing a lot of cleaning and sorting out.  I just know that there are little ant colonies that have set themselves up there!

The picture is of the pond that is rapidly turning into a few puddles.

It just came 20200106

Woke up feeling rather tired and achy despite having the feeling that I slept quite well.  Vivek came to Buddha Garden this morning and he talked a lot with Giri and Rajan.  I went away feeling that Buddha Garden is being taken away from me, but it was not a bad feeling.

I found out that Rachael will not be able to live stream the wedding.  Apparently it is too complicated.  I am quite upset and this morning while cycling to Buddha Garden I wondered about going there to the wedding and making the video myself….

This picture, about Saturday’s session, just came to me in a delightful way.  I loved doing the double helix.